OCTOBER 30, 2007

WELL, I worked today all over the place. had a meeting this morning with m. you know it sucks ignoring him at work, no hug, no nothing. oh well it is what it is. i gotta quit worrying about it or i'm going to go nuts. i need to accept i have what i have or i dont have anything. is it worth it. yea i think it probably is. for the time being anyway. i need that curl on the back of his neck when he gets a hair cut and he wont let me have it. i think i'll snip it in his sleep. we have a hospitality school coming up. i wonder how he will be. will he still stay with me? i hope so. i need to find security in what he tells me. and not worry so much. i am NOT in high school. i am having lunch with paul today and i am having dinner with lisa and sonia. it is amazing to me what good freinds they are. when you need somebody like that its awesome to have them.